| You've got your umbrella in my way |
[25 Oct 2007|12:04pm] |
I'm not really sure why I still have this journal. Lately, I've either been writing about music or writing things that are way too personal for here. I'm thinking about deleting it. The communities used to be fun, but I really don't get much out of them anymore. I've been writing these emails to myself called "Coffee Days." Whenever I am overwhelmed with a feeling, I just write it out in any way and any style. Doesn't matter. I call them "Coffee Days" because I don't drink coffee, but there are days (and I mean, a few a year), where I feel like I could use one. These are the days I'm writing about. I numbered them.
This is from #3
"Maybe she is a type. Maybe I do have a type. Issues. Issues. I love issues. I want to fix your issues. I want to solve all of your problems. Who do I think I am? Why do I have this desire to save people from themselves? Maybe I need someone to save me. Maybe this was a test. Why doesn't she want me? Would it matter if I were a man? Would it matter if I were perfect? I don't know if it would. I know nothing. I know I want to love her. But now I'm back to knowing nothing. Is she my friend? Is she now my fake friend? Is she scared everytime she looks at me? Is she scared to talk? Be herself? She knows. I love every move she makes, and now she knows. "
Anyway, I guess I am getting restless. I feel like I got myself somewhat back on track. The Year of Change has been quite challenging, but now I am ready for the Year of Action. This has been quite an interesting year thus far, but I am ready to embark on the next journey. I caught my breath. I wasted lots of money and got nice things I don't need. I got an apartment. I feel like it is all leading up to my Halloween Party on Saturday. I think it will be a big turning point with many aspects of my life. I know that sounds dumb. It's just a party. But my past and my future will come together for the first time. I'm a little nervous. There were so many expectations for this party. But I ruined them. You know when you spend too long imagining the possibilities of something, because you still don't know how it will turn out? And you do it for so long and then when you finally get there and it doesn't go the way you wanted and you realize that all of those possibilities are gone...you don't know where to go from that point? It like...kept me going. In some sick way. I don't know what I mean by that. I was always the type of person that was very content on being alone. Now I am the type to become completely infatuated with someone and use it as fuel. The last 5 years have really changed me. I just wish I knew what to do now. I cannot make her go away. I don't want her to go away. She asked me if I wanted her to go away. What could I say? Yes. And stop being so fucking cute while you're there?
I should delete this jounal.
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| Understanding My Fear of Radiohead |
[18 Oct 2007|02:38pm] |
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It is hard for most people to understand a legitimate fear of certain music. Even to the most apathetic listener, music can change everything. Music can change your whole mood. It can change how you feel about someone. It has stopped people from killing themselves and killing others. It has caused people to kill themselves and kill others. There are times when I listen to music and I don’t remember what I felt before the song came on. I just know how I feel at that moment. And the next song can create a whole new feeling. The better the song the stronger the feeling. Every realization I’ve ever had in my whole life has been to a song. I don’t really know how you can feel without the right music. I have a pretty strong belief that certain music is not meant to be enjoyed. It exists and we all know it exists, but to actually soak in it is to be a masochistic psychopath. The one and only time I agreed to see Radiohead, I sat in my chair shaking and crying the entire time. I felt like my whole body was going to explode. During “Fake Plastic Trees” I cried so much I had to leave. I’m not an overdramatic person. I like to sit unnoticed whenever possible. And I cried so fucking much I had to leave. I felt the same way when I saw Sigur Ros. I didn’t find it relaxing or enjoyable. I found it terrifying. For many reasons. The first issue is how anyone can create music that good. it is too good. As if effortless. Everyone’s idea of good music is different and I accept that, but honestly… if heaven has music playing on the loud speakers, it is Sigur Ros. With that said, if there is no heaven, I imagine Radiohead to be playing when you die…wherever that may be. Radiohead captures darkness and sadness and confusion in ways that no other band has ever even dreamed or would ever want to dream. The first time I listened to Kid A, I thought I was dying. It is the next note they choose to go to. It is that repetitive ending that goes and goes and goes until you feel like it’s going to kill you. It is Thom Yorke’s ghost of a voice. It is words you never thought to use to explain a feeling. It is their ability to make absolutely no sense musically or lyrically, yet make perfect sense at the exact same time. I get it, yet I don’t get it at all. The lyrics to “How to Disappear Completely:” “I’m not here. This isn’t happening.” Over and over. This is how. Just try and convince yourself. Because no matter what you do, you exist. You can’t stop it, and there’s no real way to disappear completely. But if there is I’m pretty sure Radiohead has figured it out. And it scares the shit out of me. Life can be beautiful, and there is lots of music capable of capturing that. But the part of life that is ugly…that is captured by Radiohead. Perfectly. Too perfectly. It reminds you of the day you cried so much that you threw up. It reminds you of the moment you thought about killing yourself. It reminds you that these things are always with us; and that we have no idea what any of this means. It is not music of hope, it is music of depressing realism. The world is an imperfect place; on the smallest and largest of scales. It is haunting that they…exist. It is too much to handle, and everytime they create more music I jump into it thinking I’ll be able to handle it this time. I can’t. Who makes music like this? Why do they do it? I listened to Hail to the Thief on headphones in my room the night it came out and my mom walked in on me and I hope to God she has forgotten about it. After two listens, I retired the album forever. I haven’t taken it out of its case in 4 years. My Kid A looks unused. It is probably my favorite album of all time and I can’t listen to it. I wish I could get someone else to understand this. So, they have released a new album. It is no different from Kid A. I want to listen to “Videotape” on repeat and curl up in a ball and cry hysterically for days. Maybe it is not so terrible to embrace the things that scare you. That must make me a masochistic psychopath. I hate Radiohead. I resent them. Do I resent them because they’re right? Am I afraid to listen because it’s all true? Do I resent them because they are so good? I don’t know, and I guess I don’t understand my fear of Radiohead. It’s just music. I don’t know why I wrote this. I’m not here. This isn’t happening.
-10/11/07
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| Sex |
[16 Oct 2007|02:25pm] |
I took this picture today of Michael Patrick King in Bryant Park. The chair says "Sex and the City"
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My friend took this way better picture with her sidekick.
I kind of love living here.
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| he he he |
[14 Oct 2007|10:18pm] |
▌ ARTiST….: Kanye West & Andre 3000 ▐
▌ TiTLE…..: You’re All Welcome ▐
▌ LABEL…..: n/a ▐
▌ GENRE…..: Hip-Hop ▐
▌ SOURCE….: CDDA ▐
▌ ENCODER…: LAME 3.97 -V2 –Vbr-New ▐
▌ BiTRATE…: VBRkbps ▐
▌ RiP DATE..: 06-Sep-2007 ▐
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▌ 01. Kanye West & Andre 3000 - Skew It On The Bar-B 2007 02:32 ▐
▌ 02. Kanye West Ft. T-Pain - Good Life 03:23 ▐
▌ 03. Kanye West Ft. Chris Martin - Homecoming 02:48 ▐
▌ 04. Kanye West - Barry Bonds 03:12 ▐
▌ 05. Kanye West - Big Brother 04:46 ▐
▌ 06. Kanye West Ft. Consequence - Don’t Forget Em (Remix) 03:24 ▐
▌ 07. Kanye West Ft. Common - Southside 03:00 ▐
▌ 08. Kanye West Ft. Lil Wayne, Busta Rhymes & Young Jeezy 05:29 ▐
▌ 09. Kanye West Ft. John Mayer - Bittersweet 03:45 ▐
▌ 10. Kanye West - Stay Up 00:54 ▐
▌ 11. Kanye West Ft. Talib Kweli - In The Mood 02:30 ▐
▌ 12. Kanye West - I Still Love Her 01:37 ▐
▌ 13. Kanye West - Us Placers 01:07 ▐
▌ 14. Kanye West - Young Folks 01:39 ▐
▌ 15. Kanye West Ft. Kid Sister - Pro Nails 02:04 ▐
▌ 16. Kanye West - Stronger 04:01 ▐
▌ 17. Kanye West - Like This 02:25 ▐
▌ 18. Kanye West - Classic 01:19 ▐
▌ 19. Kanye West - Arms Race 00:43 ▐
▌ 20. Kanye West - Because of You 00:59 ▐
▌ 21. Kanye West - Buy You A Drank 01:04 ▐
▌ 22. Kanye West - Throw Some D’s 02:11 ▐
▌ 23. Andre 3000 - Throw Some D’s 01:00 ▐
▌ 24. Andre 3000 - Walk It Out 01:21 ▐
▌ 25. Andre 3000 & Kanye West - You’re All Welcome (Produc 02:47 ▐
▌ 26. Andre 3000 Ft. Devin The Dude - What A Job 02:08 ▐
▌ 27. Andre 3000 Ft. UGK & Big Boi - International Players 04:14 ▐
▌ 28. Andre 3000 - Chronomentrophobia 01:12 ▐
▌ 29. Andre 3000 - Hollywood Divorce 00:51 ▐
▌ 30. Andre 3000 Ft. Lloyd - You (Remix) 00:59 ▐
▌ 31. Andre 3000 - Life Is Like A Musical 02:06 ▐
▌ 32. Andre 3000 - Idlewild Blue 03:00 ▐
▌ 33. Andre 3000 - A Day In The Life of Benjamin Andre 04:41 ▐
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▌ Total Time 79:11 ▐
http://www.hoodfever.com/kanye-west-andre-3000-youre-all-welcome/
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| kill me |
[08 Oct 2007|11:00am] |
All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something
I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish I was your favourite smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style
I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met
I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly
'Cos it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see
Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, actually I meant three
I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep
All i know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
I wish that we could see if we could be something
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| Imagine Peace |
[04 Oct 2007|09:59am] |
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On October 9th 2007, Yoko Ono will unveil the IMAGINE PEACE TOWER on Videy Island, Reykjavik, Iceland. Dedicated to the memory of her late husband John Lennon on what would have been his 67th birthday, the IMAGINE PEACE TOWER will shine as a beacon for World Peace.
Sponsored by the City of Reykjavik, the Reykjavik Art Museum and Reykjavik Energy, the IMAGINE PEACE TOWER will be surrounded by more than 495,000 PEACE WISHES from people worldwide that the artist has collected since 1981 as part of her interactive Wish Tree exhibits.
The wishes will be stored in capsules and buried surrounding the IMAGINE PEACE TOWER.
Yoko Ono invites you to join her and thousands of others by sending your PEACE WISHES to the IMAGINE PEACE TOWER for October 9th.
| | A dream you dream alone is only a dream
A dream you dream together is reality
Yoko Ono
Imagine all the people living life in peace.
John Lennon | |
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To send your wishes:
Email: click here.
Post: IMAGINE PEACE TOWER, P.O. Box 1009, 121 Reykjavik, Iceland.
www.imaginepeace.com
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| break your heart open so new light could get in |
[24 Sep 2007|03:49pm] |
"He probably was. Your problem is you don’t understand what that word means. People think a soulmate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soulmate is a mirror, the person that shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soulmate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soulmate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soulmates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave. And thank God for it. Their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light could get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you had to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master and beat it.”
Eat, Pray, Love
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| What's wrong with a little pleasant ether, I always say |
[24 Sep 2007|09:39am] |
James Blunt's 2004 debut, Back to Bedlam, charmed American audiences like a bad Hugh Grant movie, only moonier -- soft, unfailingly polite, very sappy. On All the Lost Souls, Blunt again delves into pretty folk pop, though he comes up with a couple of solid cuts in the Bowie-minus-the-weird “One of the Brightest Stars” and “Give Me Some Love,” which is Elton-esque piano pop with a hilarious chorus that begins, “Why don't you give me some love?/I've taken a shipload of drugs.” Problem is, the same sap that fueled “You're Beautiful,” the silly little megahit Blunt may never live down, returns on songs like “Carry You Home.” What's more, too much of All the Lost Souls is just pleasant ether, with Blunt showing a gift for drabness on forgettable ballads that make Coldplay seem like the Arctic Monkeys. Blunt can write a solid pop song now and then. But on All the Lost Souls, the impulse to woo you with that androgynous voice and Byronic sensitivity overwhelms his better instincts. CHRISTIAN HOARD (Posted: Sep 5, 2007) |
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| Blink Blink |
[21 Sep 2007|03:27pm] |
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9/21/07, 1:17 pm EST 
Their new album won’t be released until 2008 (and on what label remains an open question), but it looks like Radiohead aren’t done teasing us with details about their first LP since 2003’s Hail to the Thief. Two and a half months after their artwork depot Hodiau Direkton went on hiatus, a series of boxed faces with stick arms remerged on the site yesterday. For anyone who saw Zodiac, or just enjoys word games, it became obvious that these little boxes represented some form of cryptogram (for those outside the know, that’s a puzzle in which a symbol represents a letter of the alphabet). One RH fan on the fan site Ateaseweb.com diligently figured out that yesterday’s message spelled out “Yes, WeAre Still Alive.” Kind of vague, but maybe it was Radiohead’s way of making first contact with the fans. So today, to test our merit, Thom Yorke and the boys have posted another message (see above). This time, the code revealed lyrics to a song that will most likely feature on their new, still-untitled album. What does the cryptogram say? Figure it out yourself, or keep reading for the solution. From the song “Bodysnatchers”:
BlinkYour
Eyes
OneForYes
TwoForNo
Code
Code
Code
http://www.rollingstone.com/rockdaily/index.php/2007/09/21/radiohead-cryptically-post-new-song-lyrics-make-sudoku-seem-irrelevant/
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| Was this common knowledge? |
[18 Sep 2007|11:42am] |
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Published Saturday, 27th January, 2007 at 10:14 AM Brian Eno will be producing the new album from Coldplay according to an interview with BBC Radio 4. Eno was being interviewed for the station's Front Row show which you can listen to here, where he described the new material as being "very original and very different from what they've done before." Coldplay have been working on their fourth album since October 2006 after purchasing their own studio in London. The band will also be touring Latin America during February and it's expected they will be testing some of the music from the new album on the dates.
Eno, what are the rest of us supposed to do to catch up? I just threw on X&Y for good measure. Scary.
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| everything I'm not made me everything I am |
[17 Sep 2007|12:18pm] |
Starting to panic early this year. This morning it felt like 55 degrees or so. I can't stand it. Oh well. Too late to bitch about it now. Somewhat trying to embrace the fall. I am excited for Halloween. Me and my friends from work already planned to go to the Haunted Mansion in the Lower East Side and Six Flags Fright Fest. I haven't gone to Fright Fest in about 8 years or so. I like doing fun things. I get it.
This week has been slightly better than last so far. I have been really enjoying living in Brooklyn. I finally got my tires fixed (for only $40!) and found a very expensive jacket that I want in Park Slope. This is why poor people shouldn't live in nice neighborhoods. I missed the Brooklyn Book Festival, which I kind of wanted to go to..but I'm not particularly upset about missing. Chuck Klosterman was going ti speak at 5. Last night was Keri's birthday dinner. I had soy chicken for the first and last time in my life. Saw Brian which is always fun. Brian is like the ghost of livejournal past. Where have you gone, you myspace whore?
This morning my boss yelled at me and Stephanie for talking in my cubical. We are not allowed to laugh and/or be friends in the work place. This job is so silly. I am not that upset about it though. Two new girls started today and I think she is just trying to set an example. It must really suck to be my boss. She is our age but we all hate her, and she has no choice but to do her job. I just don't understand why she always goes after me and Steph. I felt like I was in high school. It made me upset that I have such a silly office job. But at the same time, I'm not really upset about it at all. Not right now. I need to be here.
I was able to ride my bike to the 7th Avenue Q which has already made a huge difference in my week. I just feel safer leaving my bike over there. I know I've said it before but it's really amazing what a difference 10 blocks can make in Brooklyn.
I saw Across The Universe this weekend. I am seriously going to have to see it again before I say anything about it. I have never been so undecided on something. I just feel like it's so easy to mess up The Beatles. Every other song made me cringe and I just wanted them so stop. But other songs were amazingly done. It played like Broadway, which I am very picky about. Beatles dorks will enjoy the constant references. It was different.
I also haven't stopped listening to Kanye. Literally. People say that and they don't mean it literally. It's over, I start it again. At Home, at work, on the train. Kanye Kanye Kanye.
I think this is my favorite song of the year so far. Is that over the top?
http://youtube.com/watch?v=CJs-KYWHOwo
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[10 Sep 2007|01:47pm] |
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Something is going on. What is it? I don't know what I want. I can't have the thing I know I want. I can't even say anything. I am lonely and I am still adjusting to it. No matter how many people I surround myself with, it's still there. Going into that bed alone every night...has been...excruciating. I never thought I would be this type of person. Every time I think I'm doing ok with being alone, I get a harsh reminder that I am not. I am having beyond bad luck at this point, and this whole year has just been the most bazaar time in my life (which is saying a hell of a lot). I don't really know how to articulate how I'm feeling. Really, since the stroke of midnight January 1st, everything has just been so bazaar. I've turned into the type of person that can't communicate through words; that gets uncomfortable and overly self-conscious around everyone. I have never felt so insecure and so unsure of myself. I have become such an awkward person. I feel like my spirit has been broken. My confidence lost. I want to know why. What does it all mean?
I was having a great weekend until Sunday night, when I went to get my bike at the G stop and found both tires slashed. I had just gotten new tires Saturday morning. It is unreal at this point. There were about 20 bikes on that corner. Only mine had slashed tires. And it just made me realize that the great weekend I was having isn't really what I need to make me happy. It just distracted me. I don't know what I need. And I am so sick of this pointless bad luck. Have you ever tried to get hairdye off of your skin and scratched up your whole face in the process? As far as my things being stolen, lost, and vandalized, I realize that these are trivial events - and besides being upset about wasting money, I really don't care about any of those things. Take all of my crap, please. I don’t want it. I don’t need it. I just feel like these things are happening as a manifestation of my unhappiness with more important issues in my life. Maybe this has all been a dream. I am good at figuring those out. Let's see...
Slashed tires. lost cell phones and broken ipods.
I can't get where I need to go...All communication has been lost...And I can't hear the music anymore.
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| Pocono |
[03 Sep 2007|12:14am] |
Viv's random pocono pics. I finally put them in my bucket.
Enough livejournal. I'm going cold turkey....til Monday.
Jess is coming now and I will not be talking to myself anymore..at least for the next 24 hours.
:)
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| Kid A |
[02 Sep 2007|08:46pm] |
So, facebook is quite addicting. Scary stuff. I just joined the group "Top 10 Albums," and promptly posted my bid. I didn't really think about it much, and now that I look at it, this is a really weird list. I'm sorf of surprised at myself. But I didn't want to think about it too much. I mean, seriously, I could spend months compiling a list like that. I just named the best 10 albums I could think of. Tried to balance favorites with those of great impact...sort of met somewhere in the middle. This is...weird.
The Beatles - Rubber Soul
Radiohead - OK Computer
Marvin Gaye - What's Going On
The Beach Boys - Pet Sounds
Michael Jackson - Thriller
At The Drive In - Relationship of Command
Travis - The Man Who
The Smiths - The Queen is Dead
Stevie Wonder - Songs in the Key of Life
Gnarls Barkley - St. Elsewhere
I might have to hit up mypoproks to elaborate on this.
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| 6am looks the same in Brooklyn |
[02 Sep 2007|06:06am] |
I can't fall asleep. Everything is so new. I basically completely unpacked my room. I have always been like that. Hate the sight of unpacked things. I'm so tired, but I can't make myself stop. I've been fucking around online for a bit, I'm stealing connection from dotpacific. No idea what that is. I live on Pacific though, so that much makes sense. People that live downstairs..like...own roosters. I don't get it. It's fucking weird. I hear a rooster at sunrise. It's so fucking disorienting. it's going to be weird to get used to. Went to 5th Avenue earlier tonight. I think I may end up moving in to The Chocolate Room. Just read the menu for 10 minutes, but never actually went in. I will, though. I spent most of the day building my loft bed with my dad.
It's scary being up there. Maybe that's part of the reason why I won't go to sleep. Living in Brooklyn is amazing. There is a Jamaican Day Parade today (i think), and the band has been practicing in the warehouse next store all week. It's kind of awesome. I wish I was just a few blocks closer to Park Slope. It's amazing the difference a few blocks can make. But it's worth paying less rent to be a few blocks away. I mean...Jesus. I had my groceries delivered the other day. I'm thinking I may do Fresh Direct. I like the delivery idea, but they literally just cart it over to your house with you. Kind of weird. I just got so many heavy things. I don't know how I expected to carry it by myself otherwise. It makes me really sad to do things like that alone. For a bunch of reasons...I guess.
I wake up in the morning here, and it takes me about 5 minutes to figure out what the hell is going on. I mean if you really stop and think about where you are and what you're doing sometimes...you could go fucking crazy. I am so happy...yet so sad. I've been just...so sad lately. I kind of hate being single. Is that a stupid thing to say? I'm just obsessing over her...obsessing. For no fucking reason. It makes it even harder. It's like right there in front of me, and someone is just constantly smacking my hand saying "nope." I want I want I want. Which reminds me, I watched season 2 of the L Word while unpacking today. For no real reason other than to make myself upset. I wanted to watch My So-Called Life, but I can't find it? It's not with my DVD's. I'll guess maybe Steph's sister still has it. It works out though, because the re-release comes out in October. Lots of goodies, including liner notes by Joss Whedon! I wanted to ride my bike in Prospect Park today, but it looks like I will end up sleeping. I just ordered 2 of these:
Yes, two. They hold 500...so I actually still will be short. I just can't believe I even bothered bringing my old one here. I think target furniture has a 1 move limit. I tried to push it for sure. Same with Ikea. These will fit perfectly in the corner of my room. There's this part of the wall that comes out a bit in the corner. So I'm going to put the two shelves on each side...if you follow. It will look cute. I was too tired to go back out for a drink with my friend Emily. I felt kind of stupid. I mean, one of the reasons why I moved closer to the city was to be able to go out when someone calls and says "let's go out." Just sick of always worrying about how I will get home. It's a 15 minute walk to 5th Avenue in Park Slope from here. And an even shorter bike ride. Same to the subway. I rode my bike to the train station the last few days. It was perfect. Everyone has a bike around here. It's pretty cool. Not like in Bayside where people look at you funny if you use a bike to get around. Plus I love my bike. I should take a picture of it sometime! But anway, I guess I will have more energy when all this moving shit is over. My dad gave me his old futon, but they forgot a couple of pieces, so I put my No Doubt chest (don't ask) underneath to keep it up. Which means I have an unpacked box of my No Doubt stuff...which bugs me for many reasons. How can I get rid of my No Doubt stuff? I spent so much time and energy collecting that stuff. Making that scrap book. I have to keep it. We're going to display my set of the No Doubt figures in the living room somewhere. I think the top of one of the small bookshelves would be adorable. We have to have some small homage to No Doubt in this apartment. Because as sick as it is, they are how we met each other. I met Jess waiting online for various No Doubt events during the Rock Steady tour. She met our other room way before that...the same way. Pretty insane. It's a part of my life I will never forget.
Speaking of, Jess posted my Shittiest Bands in the World blog entry on ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) ohnotheydidnt. This community has like a million members. Look how many comments it got!!!!!!!!!
My blog got about 400 something hits yesterday! It went from about 40 a day to 400! Insane. A few of the comments actually persuaded me to change the entry a bit! (NOT the list though...fuck it...Linkin Park bugs me). I'm so good at amusing myself. Maybe tha't's why I'm so lonely.
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| i'm sure it bloody is |
[29 Aug 2007|05:10pm] |
8/28/07, 4:39 pm EST 
In June, Rock Daily reported that acclaimed artists/producers Brian Eno and Daniel Lanois were starting work with U2 on the band’s next album, the follow-up to 2004’s How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb. Here’s a status report, straight from Lanois, who has produced a handful of albums for the band, including 1984’s The Unforgettable Fire, 1987’s The Joshua Tree and 1991’s Achtung, Baby: “We’ve been invited as writers this time,” he says. “I did three writing sessions with Eno and U2 — one in Fez, Morocco; two in France. It’s going great. We’re regrouping in November.” He adds that “the record’s kind of making itself.” Lanois has included some footage of the Morocco sessions in his upcoming documentary, Here Is What Is, but the scenes are well into the film. “It just seemed to make sense there and I didn’t want to take advantage of those guys. They’re so kind to me,” says Lanois. “They’re saying, ‘Lanois, you’re going to show us recording and we haven’t even put out a record yet, c’mon.’ I said, ‘Aw, please. We’re not going to give away anything and besides we’ve got twenty-five years together, throw me a biscuit [laughs].”
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| it's heavy it's on my mind |
[27 Aug 2007|12:19pm] |
I want to write about this record so bad...I just haven't had any time. It comes out tomorrow in the US, and of course they added two extra tracks to the release. I got a used copy of the UK release last month. "Rawhide" (w/ Lilly Allen) is on this one. Poops! I never learn my lesson and just wait for the things to come out here. I'm too impatient. I once saw a used copy of the Jim Noir record in Tower Records for 99 cents 2 months after I had gotten it for $30 on amazon.uk. I want to try and go to the Jamie T Bowery show next month, but now I'm worried that it's going to sell out. There's always craigslist, I guess.
I'm moving tonight.
There are so many things going on in my head right now. I'm about ready to chop it off. I'm going to be alone in the apartment for a while, and won't even have a TV until my mom brings it over. Not that I need TV, it's just nice to have on when you're alone, you know? Alone. Alone. Alone. I moved all of my things from Bayside to Brooklyn by myself (literally) over the weekend. I'm using a van service to bring my mattress and my dresser tonight..pretty much. I picked up a loft bed in Astoria yesterday, and my mom actually helped me out with that. I understand that they're moving and they're busy too. Everyone's busy. I'm fucking terrified...and I feel like I have no one to talk about it. I feel like I don't even want to bother anyone with my bullshit at this point. I don't want to turn into one of those people that harasses others for attention. I just feel like I don't have anyone to fucking spill my guts too. I'm so afraid to be alone in that apartment tonight. I'm afraid to start crying when I am alone. This part of me just wants to go home after I'm moved in and sleep in Bayside for a few more days. But I just have to jump in. It's like how I jump right in the water instead of walking in slowly. You just have to jump in or you waste time. This will be the most important thing I ever get through. I have to build my loft bed by myself tonight.
Life is funny.
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